I lack passion

So in my day of nothingness today, I realized something. I lack passion.... no, not the passion I talk about most often, the other one.... the passion that keeps a person alive. The passion that drives someone to greatness. I have eliminated everything from my life that I was ever passionate about. When I was in college, I used to write.... Nothing brilliant, but it was mine.... and I used to throw clay.... again, nothing spectacular, but it possessed me for hours.... and draw.... even cooking.... I've not used my oven once since I moved in.... And I gave it all up because I couldn't do it flawlessly....

And now, I wake up saying "I fucking hate my life..."

I NEED MY PASSION BACK....